A while back it occurred to me that when we reach a crisis, either health related, psychological or emotional, the time has come to look elsewhere for answers.
Often what doctors can tell us about how we feel does not quite seem to take into consideration all the aspects of our being unwell. The medications or treatments we receive seem more like a plaster to cover up the current situation, without taking care of the scar which is left behind. Also, questions about how do we feel in relation to an illness or dis-ease never seem to be asked.
We also shy away from discussing how we truly feel with "friends" because either we do not want to burden others or because we do not know ourselves how to look beyond what we are made to see.
It is at these times of crisis, when we feel that the answers we get are not enough, that we seek something more meaningful, something that honours the complexity of our psycho-physio-emotional reality and that we feel an urge to turn inwards looking for authenticity.
Healing can help us re-instate that authentic dialogue with ourself, offering the language that we have forgotten a long time ago. If we truly commit to this kind of journey there is no coming back, the hidden corners of our psyche and of our heart will be turn inside out seeking those answers no-one else can provide.
I always felt that Reiki and healing offer much more than a chance to spend time on a massage table under a blanket (although some of my clients will tell you that the feeling of containment the blanket offers, even in the middle of this scorching summer, is priceless). As a matter of fact I have never wanted to market what I offer as a "1 hour relaxing experience" and as a consequence I may have lost clients because of that...but in the same way as we all seek an authentic relationship with ourselves and others, I also felt that I had to be true to the miracles I have seen happen each and every time healing takes place.
So to go back to my insight of today, I realised that true healing is like choosing the red pill instead of the blue pill. There will be no turning back, but like Neo one needs to be ready to face one's own Shadow before the Light can be seen.
My personal journey began when I was made redundant by my company while the sole bread-winner out in Malaysia with my family. The shock was incredible but somehow after just a couple of days I realised this was a "blessing in disguise"; and it truly turned out to be as, soon after, I was able to attend a Reiki I course which changed my life by allowing me to see who I truly am. I am now a Reiki Master since 2011 and for the first time I feel ready to begin teaching Reiki. I am planning to run a Reiki I (Shoden) course at the end of November, exactly on the 7th anniversary of my Master Degree. I will confirm dates as soon as I have finalised details, but I would be grateful at this stage if any of you who are interested could let me know.